I am having a well-deserved break now, after spending the last week and a half doing what I'm supposed to complete. I guess I should be jumping for joy huh since I will have ample time to spend for myself. First things first, yahoo....Coz I really need the rest. And I guess, time for me to do whatever I want. Or so, I thought. I realise something though. It's not as easy to do it as I hope to. Hmmmm, coz time to rest does not really entail me to rest outside of my comfort zone.

Sometimes, I just feel like I am tied up in chains. Given the freedom to venture and do things, only to have it pulled back again. I don't really like to be in chains coz control and me just don't mix. I need some form of control, that I agree, but too much of it just makes me want to rebel. There is a need to draw a clear distinction between what is concern and being too over-concerned to the point of being stifling. Telling me what to wear and how to wear it just does not do it for me. Or even expecting me be aboard 24/7. What can I do even if I am there all the time? I am not a caged up animal in the zoo. I need to move, mix around and socialise. Think this issue has come up many times. I just need trust. The trust to be given the chance to do what I want. Only then will I be given the opportunity to maintain that trust. If not, I will definitely feel stifled. And that won't make it any better...